Sunday, December 21, 2008


I AM READY FOR THE STORM........

The waves crash in and the tide pulls out.

It's an angry sea but there is no doubt,

That the lighthouse will keep shining in the night.

To warn the lonely sailor.

The lightning strikes and the wind cuts cold

Through the sailor's bones, to the sailor's soul

'Till there's nothing left that he can hold

Except the roaring ocean

Give me mercy for my dreams,

'cause every confrontaion

Seems to tell me what it really means to be a lonely sailor

But when the sky begins to clear

and the sun it melts away my fear

I cry a silent, weary tear at those that mean to love me

Distance it is no real friend, and time will take its time

And you will find that in the end it brings you near a lonely sailor

But when you take me by your side, you love me warm,

you love me

And I should've realized I had no reason to be frightened

Now...I am ready for the storm.......

Friday, December 19, 2008




What was once cute and fluffy but became a bloody, rotten mess?


Yes...a rotten mess. The Chinese are smasing alive Racoon bears on the ground for fur...How inhumane. The cubs are helplessly caged and they bleed...My heart went out...don't they feel who are doing it?


However, do you think of life, a beating heart, and receptiveness to stimulants, feelings, and a struggle for survival amidst tremendous odds? Take a minute to stop and think of this; after all, animals aren’t the cuddly stuffed toys that you see in department stores. They are living, breathing creatures, given a life just as we humans have. They too have to live, eat, survive, and live their lives. But there is a huge difference between the way animals live and the way humans live. Animals have to struggle for survival; they have to fight for their lives. They do not people to help take care of their babies for them, to cook for them, no family members for guidance and help – the things that humans tend to take for granted. No. Animals are solely on their own from the minute they take their first breath to the minute they take their last. They have to eat for survival, defend themselves with nothing except themselves, build their own homes, take care of and protect their young. To them life is an extremely tough existence, and they have to make do with whatever they have and cannot demand for anything more. Sounds kind of harsh, doesn’t it? Yes, that’s an animal’s life! The world today is becoming less aware of the pain and suffering being inflicted on animals. As a result, animals are becoming even more and more downtrodden in society. Humans have, and continue to, treat animals as if they are property, as if we can own and therefore control their lives and what happens to them. This is immoral, animals are here for themselves, animals have their own lives, and they think, have feelings, feel pain, require love (from their own species), feel emotional hurt, have families, and everything else that humans do. To just simply say that non-human animals should have no rights because they’re “defective” is a mindless statement! People come to this “conclusion” because they come up with some mindless babble like, non-human animals can’t talk, drive cars or vote, and therefore they have no non-tradable properties. Well answer me this; do non-human animals have the right to exist in their natural environment and express behavior that matter to them? We withhold non-human animals the very basic rights, simply because they don’t resemble humans. Since they have it so harsh, why do we humans take pleasure from inflicting pain on them, from killing them? They have no defense; they do not have guns and rifles, they do not make traps and snares, nor can they retaliate. Hunting, poaching and shooting for pleasure, or “sport”, is both sadistic and extremely cruel. Sadistic because, you kill something that cannot defend itself in any way, something who can run only so far away from you before you catch it. Poaching an animal because of its beautiful ivory tusks or its strong horn is very unfair and signifies greed. Humans can get anything they want, they can buy anything they want in a store, but these beautiful assets of tusks and horns are God-given, and they are the elephants’ and the rhinos’ to keep, they are a part of their body. The same goes for snake and crocodile hides; they are the reptiles’ skins! If only poachers could stop to think and imagine themselves being shot down by a huge crocodile or an elephant, and then be stripped of parts of their bodies, they could be a little more compassionate.


It dosn't end here....A group of people go into the countryside on horseback with a large pack of dogs and chase the first unfortunate little fox, rabbit or bear they see. The dogs do the chasing; the hunters merely follow along. Needless to say, the dogs tear up the animal upon catching it, and the hunters stand there on their horses and cheer. Yes, this is a popular “sport”!

Another extremely disturbing aspect of animal cruelty is animal testing. Animals are literally being tortured to death by substances such as drugs, cosmetics, diseases, tobacco, alcohol, detergents and other poisons. After all these acts of cruelty such as locking animals in complete darkness, literally driving them insane – the goal, believe it or not, is actually mental insanity – and then turning them in to drug addicts, inflicting diseases such as Aids and cancer, disabling them by turning them blind or deaf, and… there has even been cases of dogs being sewn together, and many cases of mice, rabbits, guinea pigs and even monkeys having cosmetics, detergents and other household products rubbed into their shaven skin and having it drip into their eyes, while being under no anesthetic at all… All for what reason, what does this achieve? We are only finding out things we already know such as we know smoking causes cancer, drinking ruins the liver and we know the side effects of drugs on humans and the results from these experiments are not totally 100% accurate anyway because animals are different to humans. After years of developing science and technology why do we still use these unreliable and inhumanely cruel methods to find out little or no information about cures for diseases? Shouldn’t all the money and effort spent be spent on preventing these diseases in the first place by changing the environment around them instead of using all these inhumane tests on all these animals to prove nothing?
Animals are abused everyday of our lives, and right now, 100's are being tortured and killed around the world. You'd be lying if you said you'd never witnessed an act of cruelty towards an animal. But what I want to know is what did you do about it? Stop it or forget about it? There are so many problems in our world; why does animal cruelty have to be one of them?

Man is capable of the worst and of the best. We are easily capable of loving and of hating, of being clear-sighted and blind. And our relationship with the remaining animal world is a big illustration of that very fact.Animal cruelty can run the gamut from the unintentional neglect to the intentional torture of an animal.

WAKE UP...AND PLEASE SO SOMETHING...JUST THINK WHAT IF WE WERE SMASHED, BESKINNED, BEHEADED AND TESTED.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Miss you so much...Am withering away

This day is very dull without you without your laughs without your voice Without your sound without your "ONLY" !This day is standing still seconds feel like light years food tastes sour Without you, everything has gone wrong.Will you call me tonight my dear? Is a question which has no answer . will you come in my dreams.You are my love, you are my life.My door is always open for you, Because without you I feel so blue
I miss you so much!
I won’t tell you all my life I have waited for youI won’t tell you my love is deep and vast I won’t tell youI am ready to sacrifice any thing just for youI won’t tell you my eyes will see you only my ears will hear you only my voice will reach you only my heart will beat for you onlyI won’t tell you Every corner of my heart Every moment of my life Is you I won’t tell you but that’s what I want to tell you what my heart wants to sayI won’t tell you. You shall just hear that I Love You. AM IN LOVE WITH YOU.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

This distance is unbearable...

This blog is plain n simple unlike others. I just wanna say in plain words without laces and bows. No rhyming n no lyrics...just words.
Entered my room...sitting on the window sill, gazing at the dark sky I remebered a sms. It brought tears to my eyes. A sms I don't ever wanna read again. It breaks me and shatters me deep inside. I haven't been able to believe what is happening right now. Am feeling lost and weary. Rejected and thrown away. All I do is wait...this wait is getting longer and painful. It is making me pretend...pretend to be happy, smiling, at ease, at peace, its not hurting or bothering me, strong and bold.
Am not all of this...am sad, crying, restless, violent, in pain n agony, shattered and abslutely broken. LOST.
WHY ???? Good Question....I ask myself a million times why am I feeling so bad. Why is it bothering me so much, why am I not able to overcome that sms, why can't I just live a normal life as for now????
The answer ............... I CAN'T. My breath, soul, happiness, laughter, reason to live, morsel of food, sunshine, love, ecstasy, passion is not with me. I am not in touch. I try to be very composed but when alone am looking here n there. See my mobile a thousand times in a minute to check if any missed call or sms.
The moment phone rings my heart skips a beat and then.... am sad again. I am unable to sleep properly as to make sure I don't miss the call or sms if I get them.
When I take a peek in the past few months...right now we would have been ttalking , laughing, listening music like "scientist" by Coldplay or " pyar hai ya sazaa" from Salaam-e-ishq and Songs from our favourite cd in his car.... check my inbox on gmail...xpecting a mail or maybe he's seen the cards I sent him long back...no notification yet....what do I do???
Will this ever happen again.....this one thought is killing me...Am absolutely lost...Don't know how am handling this....but now am unable to. IF YOU ARE READING THIS THEN PLEASE HUG ME. AM LONELY AND ALONE WITHOUT YOU. This distance n space is unbearable now.

All Alone..


I am alone. I am one soul.I am one person, being, whole.If I reach down to what is truth...I am alone, apart, aloof.
No one else can bear my fears;no one else can cry my tears.Nor can someone dream my dream,or understand what my moods all mean.
"No man is an island," a poet penned.On a wider view, this I comprehend;but getting down to the heart of it all,we are on our own, to stand or fall.
Nothing in life is ever sure.Can you guarantee me love will endure?Will you promise me that trust won't die?That friends won't leave me by and by?
No, I am alone, deep down inside,even though with those I love, I abide;because there's a spot no one can see,or touch or feel, in the soul of me.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

What If


Tomorrow..... I go away.


I wonder........ will I in your thoughts stay?

Will your thoughts be sublime?

or will I be........ out of sight,

out of mind?

Will you give some time

of me to ponder?

Will absence make

your heart grow fonder?

I Regret....


I said I wasn't fragile.I said I didn't care.I said it didn't matter if you weren't there.I said I wasn't weak.I said I wasn't base.I said I'd take care. I said I'd be strong.I said I'd stand tall. I said I feel you close without you here, but now I feel helpless and small. I still hear your voice,its husky tone.I still wear your green shirt that smells of your body.I still watch our sunsets with misty eyes.I still wanna always be addressed as BABYPIE...I still miss you...regret saying I'll handle as I can't now....Am alone...Come back jaana...